Hurting My self..

I hurt myself today ..to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain ..the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole ,the old familiar sting ..
try to kill it all away ....
but I remember everything ...what have I become?
my sweetest friend ...everyone I know goes away in the end
and you could have it all ...my empire of dirt

I will let you down ...I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here

what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way